~you're still in my mind

As days pass, i feel abit better,
im eating properly, i can think clearly and the dreams seem to have stop,
(but sometimes still dream abit)

Last night as i was abt to sleep,
my driving teacher called me and said that i have lesson the next day at 7am =.=|||
so late dy call then expect me to wake up so early to prepare. swt la

My driving was fine, but today it was abit bad,
while driving back home, my teacher had to break for me a few times =.=
coz all the sudden, i remember "her"

thinking the whole time, when will i ever drive her out again?
when will i have the chance to bring her out to dinner?
perhaps drive her to Uni too?

i will always miss her,
she was the best.
if i could write about all the good things about her,
it would take more than a day to complete it.

~Im not over you =(

Im still thinking of you everyday and every second,
Its hard to forget someone you love truly and deeply,
someone you have devoted your heart to,
someone you have spend together with a long time.

Im so depress, the pain in my heart has become a scar.
everyday i feel weaker and weaker.
"she" was my strength and weakness,
when "she" left, im nothing.

This morning i wake up with my tummy pain,
i realise i havent been eating properly,
i used to eat 2 plates of rice,
now i can hardly finish half plate of rice.
sometimes i even just eat half plate of rice for dinner only.
Im too depress to eat, i feel very hungry!
but i just got no appetite to eat =s

My emotions and feelings are just too strong,
or is it my "love" towards her?
I dnt knw wat to do anymore...
beside thinking wat i did and blaming myself.

~对 不 起 ! !

Im still having those dreams.
They just can't seem to stop.
Now i consider my dreams as nightmares,
because every time i wake up, i dnt feel fine.

Today i wake up wif my eyes watery.
i feel sorry for what i have done to "her".
i feel so sad and depress!
i miss "her"

why is it so hard? T.T
everyting i see, touch, hear and do reminds me of "her"
yesterday while "kan dianshi"
didi changed the channel to 615 and it was "Pucca"
"she" used to watch that before and see those characters as "us"

My heart felt so cold and heavy.
It hurts so much!

~It's all my fault ='(

I can't take it anymore...
It's the same thing over and over...
I can't make the bleeding stop.
It hurt so much!!!

Instead of nightmares, I dream of memories.
Dream of all the things "we" used to do.
It seems so real, only to wake up everyday to find out,
It was just a dream!
I feel so pain in my heart!
Sometimes i even can't breath.

I don't want to feel this pain anymore.
Make it stop!
I want to sleep forever, i don't want to wake up!
It's the only way i feel "we're" together again.
And the only way i feel everything is back to normal.

I never felt so hurt before in my life.
Why can't doctors make medicine to cure this pain!!
Even hitting the wall with my hands, my heart still feel more pain than my hands.

I can't bare this pain no longer...

~Its all about FOOD! =D

~In this blog, i'll be talking about food! i'll be showing what i've made for these pass few week >.<

1st in the list is the usual eggs + sausage for breakfast.

It started off nicely as i crack the eggs in along wif the sausages aside.

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and then...things start to get messy as i tried to "FLIP" the egg =.=
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(FAILED ATTEMPT TO FLIP EGG)

but...it still can be eaten=P
finally, set the breakfast down and ate it while watching TV =)




my 2nd breakfast i prepared was quite a success =)
just last week, dad got a new "Toaster"
worked wonderfully =D

I'll start off from scratch =P

(The new toaster)

The ingredients for my breakfast =D
yup...more eggs XD

i've decide to use the toaster to make eggs instead of bread.
so...1st i put some butter and let it melt.

after that...spread the eggs in. then close it and wait a few minutes.

when its done....its gona look like this....the smell is extremely sweet!! YUM YUM=D

Throw in a couple of crackers and its time to chowww down XD



Of all the food i've made these pass few weeks, the best has got to be....

THIS!!!
haha...i know what u're thinking..."eggs again?"
yess yess...but this time i've added some minced pork with some "Korean sea-weed with Wasabi". all together completed with omelet egg and rice =)